The Fell Hand
Jul 8, 2005, @ 01:19 PM
Teh really important stuff.
Our division has faced many changes and challenges, and forces (eww lamespy) that have been beyond our control (die relic :(). Things were tough, that's hard to deny, and I applaud those of you that have stuck through 'for the love of the game', although at the same time I'm not in any way trying to stamp on anyone who couldn't put up with all of the gheyness.
~Intermission~
Teh explanation of "Who is this Fell(ow)?" :)
I joined TLSC in october 2004. Until that point, I'd never been in any sort of 'gaming group' or 'clan'. Such things struck me as a bit...well, retarded. Anyways, with DoW possessing quite a...er.., community, I joined up to play with reliable, cool people, and that's certainly what I got in spades.
Whether I've always acted like it, I can't say for sure, but for those of you who know me, I hope you've kept in mind that I've always tried to be 'just one of the guys'. Sure I get a shiny green name, and a scary title /w mod powers, but I cared little for these things. I wanted to just game as I always did, pwning the lobby up etc. etc.
Rather than keep it in my own little bottle of experiences, I'll simply say that when they say management is tough, they mean it. I'm pretty sure it won't all hit home, since it really takes a while of going at it till you figure it all out.
Anyways, compared to the youthful days of the division, It's been a lot harder, especially since I've been working, to do everything I used to do. Part of it stems from a pseudo-miserable community. When people interact in a great, flourishing game, differences are overlooked, people bond and we remember 'that guy that saved me ass' or 'that guy that orbitalled himself' (*coughfurious*) :). However, the converse is also in effect, and people run taut when things aren't going so well. The division seemed to hit a wall in the 1.3 patch, with the community not reacting well to the changes, us included.
Rather than pinpoint specific incidents and causes, I think you can all imagine or recall to some degree how hard it was.
Rather than delve into my mystic past *rolls eyes*, I'll simply say that back then I had 24 hours a day to game (plus minimal sleep), whereas now I work full time and must sleep so I don't go afk on the job. I couldn't live up to the old Fell in many ways, and I feel numerous members were indirectly/inappropriately smitten by my lack of absolute patience/presence. What I mean is, I wasn't quite there like I used to be, and in effect, I was still a player in DoW. The shittiness of early 1.3 days got to me as well.
So what can I really say? I was 'elected' to this position because i'm fair, patient, and cuz i have teh skillz :P. I did the job, and I felt I did it well. The fact that this job does (try it and see someday), call for a LOT of thankless jobs, was something I could manage when everyone was happy. When people screamed 'w00t' and reamed everyone in sight in teh name of TLSC, high fives all around and a hip hip hooray, I was willing to put up with anything.
But alas, the idea of this sidebar story should be clear by now. I'm only human. When everyone was bitching and moaning, and well, some were acting pretty stupid, I felt a bit disheartened. I attributed it to my own shortcomings of not being there for everyone, and in the end, in some ways that's true. It was hard to check up on each and everyone of you, to make sure things were alright, and I know people got lost in the mix.
Frankly, going over the ranks, we had great gamers, but not a lot of perfect officer material, so I unfortunately tried to shoulder it all. If you believe your gaming experiences were indeed stunted by my failure to do all and be all, I apologize for not having the experience to make provisions for alternative plans/approaches. I was just a guy, in a great game, playing with great people, until that all went to hell and I was a bit down, and totally lost.
So, what have I learned? Well, they're not perfect, but neither am I. I'm putting in active, reasonably responsible (I believe), people, just to maybe help watch over things. Of course now i'll have to put in a bit of work and watch them as well, but in the end I think it's for the better. Fell's a bit more laid back and less stressed now, he doesn't take everything too seriously (I'm starting to understand mvb more etc :P), and i certainly won't try and do a million things perfectly ever again. So, in the end, not be condescending, but I am the division commander. But, also one of you gamers in Dow, and certainly nothing more than human. about a third of each maybe? (1/3 human? o.O). I'll do my best to keep things fun and in check, but often I'll just be roamin around gaming. And I don't promise it'll all be rosy, but hell those of you whom are still around certainly have enough tolerance to go through most anything I gather, thx guys. *tips hat*.
Back 2 Teh really important stuff.
The div has settled down quite nicely, only those impervious to the bs of relic and the community seem to be around, and well, I'm pleasantly surprised to see a good chunk of you. It really felt like 'the end', but I'm gaining experience as a divcom every day, and when I look at the loss in active div members, I can only attribute it to a natural cycle of those whom are unhappy leaving, and of course the game taking a bit of a slide. It happens, we're growing again, and I feel everyone who plays dow now, plays it because they enjoy it. I think things look good.
In a week or so, I will be posting up a new div list. Please post here if you're still active, and I'll remember to toss you in. Else if I see you in the lobby, we can chat there instead of you having to post. Gl in the future guys, and wish me luck as well. I'm CO, but if you ever got any probs, just holla. Thx for your time.
Exec officers - Psy and Praxis.
Officers - Santi and Frael.
Our division has faced many changes and challenges, and forces (eww lamespy) that have been beyond our control (die relic :(). Things were tough, that's hard to deny, and I applaud those of you that have stuck through 'for the love of the game', although at the same time I'm not in any way trying to stamp on anyone who couldn't put up with all of the gheyness.
~Intermission~
Teh explanation of "Who is this Fell(ow)?" :)
I joined TLSC in october 2004. Until that point, I'd never been in any sort of 'gaming group' or 'clan'. Such things struck me as a bit...well, retarded. Anyways, with DoW possessing quite a...er.., community, I joined up to play with reliable, cool people, and that's certainly what I got in spades.
Whether I've always acted like it, I can't say for sure, but for those of you who know me, I hope you've kept in mind that I've always tried to be 'just one of the guys'. Sure I get a shiny green name, and a scary title /w mod powers, but I cared little for these things. I wanted to just game as I always did, pwning the lobby up etc. etc.
Rather than keep it in my own little bottle of experiences, I'll simply say that when they say management is tough, they mean it. I'm pretty sure it won't all hit home, since it really takes a while of going at it till you figure it all out.
Anyways, compared to the youthful days of the division, It's been a lot harder, especially since I've been working, to do everything I used to do. Part of it stems from a pseudo-miserable community. When people interact in a great, flourishing game, differences are overlooked, people bond and we remember 'that guy that saved me ass' or 'that guy that orbitalled himself' (*coughfurious*) :). However, the converse is also in effect, and people run taut when things aren't going so well. The division seemed to hit a wall in the 1.3 patch, with the community not reacting well to the changes, us included.
Rather than pinpoint specific incidents and causes, I think you can all imagine or recall to some degree how hard it was.
Rather than delve into my mystic past *rolls eyes*, I'll simply say that back then I had 24 hours a day to game (plus minimal sleep), whereas now I work full time and must sleep so I don't go afk on the job. I couldn't live up to the old Fell in many ways, and I feel numerous members were indirectly/inappropriately smitten by my lack of absolute patience/presence. What I mean is, I wasn't quite there like I used to be, and in effect, I was still a player in DoW. The shittiness of early 1.3 days got to me as well.
So what can I really say? I was 'elected' to this position because i'm fair, patient, and cuz i have teh skillz :P. I did the job, and I felt I did it well. The fact that this job does (try it and see someday), call for a LOT of thankless jobs, was something I could manage when everyone was happy. When people screamed 'w00t' and reamed everyone in sight in teh name of TLSC, high fives all around and a hip hip hooray, I was willing to put up with anything.
But alas, the idea of this sidebar story should be clear by now. I'm only human. When everyone was bitching and moaning, and well, some were acting pretty stupid, I felt a bit disheartened. I attributed it to my own shortcomings of not being there for everyone, and in the end, in some ways that's true. It was hard to check up on each and everyone of you, to make sure things were alright, and I know people got lost in the mix.
Frankly, going over the ranks, we had great gamers, but not a lot of perfect officer material, so I unfortunately tried to shoulder it all. If you believe your gaming experiences were indeed stunted by my failure to do all and be all, I apologize for not having the experience to make provisions for alternative plans/approaches. I was just a guy, in a great game, playing with great people, until that all went to hell and I was a bit down, and totally lost.
So, what have I learned? Well, they're not perfect, but neither am I. I'm putting in active, reasonably responsible (I believe), people, just to maybe help watch over things. Of course now i'll have to put in a bit of work and watch them as well, but in the end I think it's for the better. Fell's a bit more laid back and less stressed now, he doesn't take everything too seriously (I'm starting to understand mvb more etc :P), and i certainly won't try and do a million things perfectly ever again. So, in the end, not be condescending, but I am the division commander. But, also one of you gamers in Dow, and certainly nothing more than human. about a third of each maybe? (1/3 human? o.O). I'll do my best to keep things fun and in check, but often I'll just be roamin around gaming. And I don't promise it'll all be rosy, but hell those of you whom are still around certainly have enough tolerance to go through most anything I gather, thx guys. *tips hat*.
Back 2 Teh really important stuff.
The div has settled down quite nicely, only those impervious to the bs of relic and the community seem to be around, and well, I'm pleasantly surprised to see a good chunk of you. It really felt like 'the end', but I'm gaining experience as a divcom every day, and when I look at the loss in active div members, I can only attribute it to a natural cycle of those whom are unhappy leaving, and of course the game taking a bit of a slide. It happens, we're growing again, and I feel everyone who plays dow now, plays it because they enjoy it. I think things look good.
In a week or so, I will be posting up a new div list. Please post here if you're still active, and I'll remember to toss you in. Else if I see you in the lobby, we can chat there instead of you having to post. Gl in the future guys, and wish me luck as well. I'm CO, but if you ever got any probs, just holla. Thx for your time.
Exec officers - Psy and Praxis.
Officers - Santi and Frael.